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For the picture in the previous post I put the Oasis bookmark in the little dictionary that used to be my daughter's when she was in school. At the letter Q to be exact since I needed a word for today. I chose Quotations because it seemed like a fun thing for a book. Googled short quotations to fit on the small pages. Here are all the quotations.</div>
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What we think, we become - Buddha</div>
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Actions are prayers - me</div>
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Change the world by being yourself - Amy Poehler</div>
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All limitations are self-imposed - Oliver Wendell Holmes</div>
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Yesterday you said tomorrow. Just do it - Nike</div>
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To live will be an awfully big adventure - Peter Pan</div>
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And still I rise - Maya Angelou </div>
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Janicehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14759846211417602796noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-805163330754963715.post-50306267302325369442019-04-19T13:03:00.001-07:002019-04-19T13:04:26.647-07:00P is for Peace<div style="text-align: center;">
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Perhaps the rest of the alphabet will be tiny books. Today is P for Peace so I made a tiny book with a Deepak Chopra quote that I like: "In the midst of movement and chaos, keep stillness inside of you."<br />
One word per page worked out perfectly but of course I'm thinking of more ways to arrange the writing in future books...because I like when things morph into other things. Yesterday's oasis necklace became a bookmark since it was too small to get over my head, lol. I think this one will become a bookmark, too.<br />
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Yesterday, I showed my tiny book to a co-worker who suggested I could poke a hole in it and make a necklace. Aha, it was N day, so okay. It was also late work day so it didn't get done until today. Which brought me to letter O. I couldn't think of anything so I looked at 2017: O for Oasis. Bingo, I drew an oasis on the cover of the tiny book, lol. Yes, I took the easy way out of that one.<br />
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I like to Make things and have lots of random ideas that I mostly don't act on. I'd like to change that habit or is it lack of habit, lol. Anyway an idea I had recently was to make tiny books. Here is my first attempt. It was fun and no pressure to be perfect since it's so tiny. </div>
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Back in January I started exercising everyday and have kept it up (shocking) Yes, I've skipped a few days here and there but I've been more consistent than anytime in the recent past. Mostly I walk / jog on the treadmill. Sometimes I do something else like Jumping Jacks or toe touches.<br />
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Yesterday I jogged on the treadmill and then did 100 (not high) Kicks in the kitchen. Then a little stretching.<br />
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Janicehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14759846211417602796noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-805163330754963715.post-11506617158872147532019-04-14T09:09:00.003-07:002019-04-14T09:09:33.385-07:00I is for Introspection <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi0gs7888etkv40zy-R77LK8CU1G08c-2cTS3frENfsNY4ntf2gRoeDoLheRr9RqHNzSZg-z04ummwwWkUaJmGFdSiXj-AMBqUcMkv76pZaqVE79oszF8jJohrrBlIhl6vfsy4Y5FqaVKs/s1600/AtoZ2019I.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="#AtoZChallenge 2019 Tenth Anniversary blogging from A to Z challenge letter" border="0" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi0gs7888etkv40zy-R77LK8CU1G08c-2cTS3frENfsNY4ntf2gRoeDoLheRr9RqHNzSZg-z04ummwwWkUaJmGFdSiXj-AMBqUcMkv76pZaqVE79oszF8jJohrrBlIhl6vfsy4Y5FqaVKs/s200/AtoZ2019I.jpg" width="200" /></a>As I was reading 2017's I post (<b>I</b>nhibition) I realized that this process of thinking about myself and how things are different or not isn't fun or particularly<b> I</b>nteresting so I figured I'd just quit. I prefer to be more about living in the present and doing stuff than endless <b>I</b>ntrospection.<br />
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Yesterday I decided to change course instead and find things to do to go with the letters. So no more <b>I</b>ntrospection, just doing fun stuff starting with <b>J</b>.<br />
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Janicehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14759846211417602796noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-805163330754963715.post-90020822242270743132019-04-10T18:34:00.000-07:002019-04-10T18:34:09.053-07:00H is for HomeIn 2017 I wrote about H is for Home and how no *home* out of 24 give or take I've lived in felt permanent after leaving the first at age 11. We are now in what I assume and hope is the last one and as yet it still feels like the *place I live* rather than home.<br />
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Perhaps it's just I don't have a working idea for what home would feel like, lol. So perhaps that is the part I will bring into awareness...and see what happens.<br />
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<br />Janicehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14759846211417602796noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-805163330754963715.post-89294428102900219092019-04-08T18:45:00.000-07:002019-04-08T18:45:05.393-07:00G is for Gratitude<br />
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Janicehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14759846211417602796noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-805163330754963715.post-22527005803973265512019-04-07T16:47:00.003-07:002019-04-07T16:47:56.503-07:00Deliberately Embracing Faith<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Today is a reset. What happens is I get behind, and behind and then behind some more and then want to quit. Considering the topics here so far, this is resistance and sabotage in action, isn't it? So I get to decide if it will be a fail or a reset.<br />
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2017 <b>D</b> was for having a <b>Dialogue</b> with the resistance and sabotage sisters. Hmmm, I was going to say that was a one off and I didn't do the dialogue thing again. But now I think about it, I do dialogue with myself and the sisters very often when I'm trying to talk myself into or out of *whatever*. Mostly I tend to think nothing is a fail, it's all just lessons to learn. So for this A to Z thing I've talked myself into getting caught up in one post and start fresh tomorrow with renewed determination to get out a post a day.<br />
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2017 <b>E</b> was for my belief that overcoming my reluctance to<b> Embrace</b> life is my life lesson to learn.<br />
2017 <b>F</b> was for my questioning what is <b>Faith</b> and do I have it and suspecting it would be helpful for the whole learning to embrace life thing.<br />
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Which is interesting since for the past few weeks I have been<b> D</b>eliberately<b> E</b>mbracing the idea of <b>F</b>aith in "God" via a 40 day commitment to lessons from A Course in Miracles. I have a hard time with the god, jesus, christ language (reminds me too much of the religion of my youth) but some of the ideas are good. So far it's not changing how I think or feel about what I think about the higher power, source, energy I do believe in. And it has got me thinking more about whether I'm willing to embrace faith and if not, why not.<br />
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I don't know off hand what G was in 2017. I hope it's an easy one.<br />
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Janicehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14759846211417602796noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-805163330754963715.post-89225078695733981772019-04-05T09:49:00.002-07:002019-04-05T09:50:15.119-07:00C is for Congruence<img alt="#AtoZChallenge 2019 Tenth Anniversary blogging from A to Z challenge letter" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjhtXUHiKE1IAFr9zOk__eX9vKE4GCAOfMOKlx2vkSpoZEZkSxHSIIWJr7-Hd9lXw3KTfQfjZpKgzjI2AztjNjZ3wXs6VqrKyNl2EE-xA70YAi_KeeDrnhL2HWbhrd3flCD0HV4qUuCpew/s200/AtoZ2019C.jpg" width="200" /><br />
<span style="background-color: #d5a6bd;">2017: C was for choosing consciousness as a way to deal with resistance and sabotage. This is ongoing as I still often need to CHOOSE to be conscious. Still doesn't come automatically.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: #d5a6bd;">I would say my C word for 2018 was cognitive dissonance, <span style="color: #222222; font-family: "merriweather" , "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">which is the feeling that comes when my beliefs, actions and knowledge don't match up. Exploring that evolved into this year's word: Congruence, the desire to reconcile how I walk in the world with my beliefs. Of course this means I need to know what I believe <smile> To that end I'm exploring some of my bigger conflicts to find a more congruent way to live.</span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: #d5a6bd; color: #222222; font-family: "merriweather" , "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">Wouldn't it be interesting if my vision resolves if I gain congruence?</span>Janicehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14759846211417602796noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-805163330754963715.post-81332531282896278262019-04-03T10:40:00.000-07:002019-04-03T10:41:50.201-07:00B is for Balance<img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhtzjckVHhdeSPZlQQ5nNdjy4M6fJj4CCui1Il1YyYiJtPZVCPqfnbOJ1dw_b68UwyyxPPV12K4l0gddVFa_GiEM19bjRuHbKmBNQuxaoaoUOqEwKQFzx12O-qdS4i4WFSuo88Tkqr_7cg/s1600/AtoZ2019B.jpg" /><br />
Two years ago, B was for Being Bad. I wrote about being on a path of self improvement yet never getting to where I wanted to be because of resistance to change and self sabotage (I called them sisters) and how self sabotage (being bad) kept me straddling the line between reaching full potential and staying in place.<br />
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I feel I've made progress. I've stopped striving to get to an unidentified "somewhere", reminding myself to be in the present moment. I have goals: to be healthy, to be of use, to become open to love.<br />
Those of course break down into actionable things that I'm taking time to do this year in a more intentional way. But mostly I'm looking for balance between striving (that can become wheel-spinning and thus resistance) and not striving (that can become mindlessness and self sabotage)<br />
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What I have really learned is that how I treat my body...food, exercise, rest, self care...determines how and when the resistance and sabotage sisters show up and how much havoc they wreak. And if those aspects of caring for myself are in place I am able to find balance and congruence between my beliefs and actions.<br />
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Ah, congruence. That is my word for this year, but that will wait for the next post.<br />
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<br />Janicehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14759846211417602796noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-805163330754963715.post-30632726235471624872019-04-01T18:44:00.000-07:002019-04-01T18:53:57.173-07:00A is for Again<img alt="#AtoZChallenge 2019 Tenth Anniversary blogging from A to Z challenge letter" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhaHOSNpqAIpgHsK3UlZ-b20xL3BY0WEegQKL98nsGnKoWz6n8ucsvL6oNGSpd4uX0vLS3W3AZE85sq9oqjh2XNXKy09Yn-NGcoaufPJ49EGmzz83N-v2hQOcGyngoC9mbP00Sexv4aaq0/s320/AtoZ2019A.jpg" /><br />
Well, here I am Again. I decided at the last minute to attempt to do the A to Z challenge this year after skipping it in 2018. The only plan I have is to use what I wrote for the challenge in 2017 as jumping off points and see if I've grown or changed or regressed in the intervening two years. And may I just say, OMG, 2! Years!! The older I get the faster time flies.<br />
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In 2017 I had hopes of establishing a regular writing practice with the A to Z posts being possible writing prompts. This year I harbor no illusions that consistent writing beyond April is going to happen. And I am fine with that.<br />
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So much for A. I have no idea if I'll get through to Z. I'm fine with that, too.Janicehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14759846211417602796noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-805163330754963715.post-7191620917105237892017-04-30T07:41:00.000-07:002017-04-30T07:42:18.931-07:00Z is for Zed<div style="text-align: center;">
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Z is for Zed, the end of the alphabet. Earlier this year I read Tolkien's <u>The Fellowship of the Ring</u> and read this poem that I want read at the end of my life.</div>
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I sit beside the fire and think</div>
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Of yellow leaves and gossamer</div>
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I sit beside the fire and think</div>
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of how the world will be</div>
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Y is for Yet as in I haven't done <fill in the blank> YET. And while I no longer beat myself up over the past I do want to find balance with being here now and looking back to see what happened. If there's time I'd like to maybe actually do one or two of the things I think I want to do or maybe just discern what that is. </div>
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Bonus word: Y is for Yesterday at the <a href="http://radiantrecovery.com/">Radiant Recovery</a> Community Forum.</div>
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Most of the time I agree with Socrates' quote. I believe getting into addiction recovery offered me an invitation to lead an examined life. I also believe it's a worthy endeavor. And it's unsettling. And once you start, it's hard if not impossible to return to one's previous oblivious life.</div>
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Granted I'm only speaking for myself. I was raised in a world where free though was not encouraged. It was a world of following the rules and acting as one should in order to be good and accepted in the group. As I got older and started questioning the rules I was so frightened of the consequences I tried to make that world even smaller with more rules to follow so I could be ok. Eventually I couldn't do it anymore and just numbed out with sugar and silence.</div>
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Then I tried doing the 7 Steps of the Radiant Recovery program as outlined in the book <u><a href="https://www.amazon.com/Potatoes-Not-Prozac-Solutions-Sensitivity/dp/141655615X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1493498173&sr=8-1&keywords=potatoes+not+prozac+new+revised">Potatoes Not Prozac</a></u> by <a href="http://radiantrecovery.com/about/">Kathleen DesMaisons</a>. I connected with the <a href="http://radiantrecovery.com/">Radiant Recovery online community </a>and a year after quitting sugar went to my first seminar (<a href="http://radiantrecovery.com/learn/seminars/">Radiant Ranch</a>). At Ranch I dared to whisper to the universe (as I had stopped trusting the god of my youth) that I wanted to have a life filled with passion and joy. Being steady with the food and more balanced in my brain I was able to begin examining my life and changing what didn't fit.</div>
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And it goes on. I have most recently been nudged to examine how the god of my youth might fit in my life. This is 30 years coming and 15+ years into doing the food. and 12 years since my whisper to the universe at Ranch. So, yes, it takes time and is ongoing.</div>
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I admit there are times I long to go back to the simplicity and mindlessness of the unexamined life. That is a sure sign that my program is off. My big danger danger signal. And I ask myself "Is the examined life worth it?" Absolutely! is my answer.</div>
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I cross posted today so no bonus word.</div>
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Janicehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14759846211417602796noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-805163330754963715.post-23294799702636891622017-04-27T18:39:00.001-07:002017-04-27T18:39:31.926-07:00W is for Writing prompts<div style="text-align: center;">
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I realized along about letter E that what I'm doing here is making myself a list of writing prompts. If my goal is to have a regular writing practice, I need something to write about. In writing my story I haven't know where to start or what exactly to write about. Now I will have 26 topics to expand on. Fifty-one if I count what I've posted at the Radiant Recovery site (there was one duplicate, I think) Whether I keep up with writing regularly without this outside push remains to be seen.</div>
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Bonus Word: <a href="http://www.radiantrecovery.com/cgi-bin/bbs-new/webbbs_config.pl?page=1;md=read;id=396670">W is for Waiting</a> at the <a href="http://radiantrecovery.com/">Radiant Recovery</a> Community Forum.</div>
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Janicehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14759846211417602796noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-805163330754963715.post-56268002166868593272017-04-26T15:32:00.000-07:002017-04-26T15:32:21.405-07:00V is for Vulnerability<div style="text-align: center;">
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This is one of those concepts that I struggle with. Right there in the same box with surrender and grace and unconditional love. All related I'm betting like threads woven together. Wool threads, woven together and felted. So tightly bound that if I can touch just one, all will be revealed.</div>
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I mean being vulnerable means being open to attack. Being willing to receive hurts in order to also receive blessings. It doesn't work both ways. It's also a matter of degree, I think. I'm open to this much (tiny bit) hurt so I get this much (equal tiny bit) blessing. Have to find the balance I can live with, that will be good enough. </div>
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Except what if I want more than good enough? What if I want everything?</div>
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Bonus Word: don't know yet but it will be at the Radiant Recovery <a href="http://www.radiantrecovery.com/cgi-bin/bbs-new/webbbs_config.pl?page=1;md=index;#m_396611">Community Forum</a>.</div>
Janicehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14759846211417602796noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-805163330754963715.post-5338036117928063702017-04-26T15:31:00.003-07:002017-04-26T19:53:51.070-07:00U is for Ubiety<div style="text-align: center;">
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I was going to use ubiquitous which means being everywhere at the same time. Then I saw ubiety listed right before it in my trusty Webster's. Ubiety: the condition of being in a particular place. So basically the opposite of ubiquity. So one wonders why ubiquitous is a commonly known word and ubiety is now considered rare?</div>
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I like the idea of being in a particular place. Makes me think of mindfulness. Be here now. It is what it is. </div>
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Bonus Word: U is for Unique at the Radiant Recovery <a href="http://www.radiantrecovery.com/cgi-bin/bbs-new/webbbs_config.pl?page=1;md=index;#m_396611">Community Forum</a>.</div>
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Janicehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14759846211417602796noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-805163330754963715.post-2088786682178636262017-04-26T14:42:00.002-07:002017-04-26T14:46:50.201-07:00T is for Tangible <div style="text-align: center;">
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So I live in my head a lot of the time. I'm into self improvement. Self actualization. Being a better person. Being useful in the world. More and more I want to be more tangible. I want my goals to be tangible. Something I can see and measure and touch. No clue what I want to do about it. Yet.<br />
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Bonus Word: <a href="http://www.radiantrecovery.com/cgi-bin/bbs-new/webbbs_config.pl?page=1;md=read;id=396611">T is for Teachable</a> at the <a href="http://radiantrecovery.com/">Radiant Recovery</a> Community Forum. </div>
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Janicehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14759846211417602796noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-805163330754963715.post-64357968909607185752017-04-24T07:11:00.002-07:002017-04-24T07:11:42.893-07:00S is for Searching<div style="text-align: center;">
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Perhaps as in searching for excuses to avoid writing everyday. Like being sick or at work or out of town. Perhaps as in being a searcher looking for the answer to the great questions, who am I? why am I here? Searching becomes a problem when the goal becomes the search rather than living the answers. How will I ever know if I've found the answer if I don't stop to live a life in the meantime? </div>
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Bonus Word: <a href="http://www.radiantrecovery.com/cgi-bin/bbs-new/webbbs_config.pl?page=1;md=read;id=396603">S is for Super foods</a> at the <a href="http://radiantrecovery.com/">Radiant Recovery</a> Community forum.</div>
Janicehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14759846211417602796noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-805163330754963715.post-63173769552219282122017-04-24T06:59:00.002-07:002017-04-24T06:59:23.533-07:00R is for Resources<div style="text-align: center;">
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I have lots of resources to use in this journey to self actualization. Books, videos, classes, teachers, friends, enemies. I've been collecting them for years. Has my progress matched the resources? No. At this point I know just doing something, anything is better than continuing to collect the illusion of progress.</div>
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Bonus Word: <a href="http://www.radiantrecovery.com/cgi-bin/bbs-new/webbbs_config.pl?page=1;md=read;id=396563">Q is for Quest Ions</a> (because I put the R word with Q post) at the <a href="http://radiantrecovery.com/">Radiant Recovery </a>Community Forum.</div>
Janicehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14759846211417602796noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-805163330754963715.post-81251470604935565332017-04-22T17:49:00.002-07:002017-04-24T07:13:11.250-07:00Q is for Questioning<div style="text-align: center;">
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I haven't kept up with writing every day. This is the second time I'm playing catch-up. So what are my excuses? First time busy with work and this time feeling crappy and sick. Are they good enough excuses? I think it just is what it is and I pick up and carry on.<br />
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Which brings me to questioning. I question myself often. How did I end up here? (irrelevant, I'm here) Where am I headed? (I'll know when I get there) Why can't I follow through on plans? Why is it so hard to even make a plan? (if you want to hear god laugh, make a plan)<br />
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I'm not sure questioning is a good use of my mind. I think noticing is more useful. See what comes up and go from there.<br />
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Bonus Word: <a href="http://www.radiantrecovery.com/cgi-bin/bbs-new/webbbs_config.pl?page=1;md=read;id=396594">R is for Ranch</a> at the <a href="http://radiantrecovery.com/">Radiant Recovery</a> Community Forum.Janicehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14759846211417602796noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-805163330754963715.post-60199811700955344752017-04-20T10:24:00.001-07:002017-04-20T12:27:02.284-07:00P is for Power and Perseverance<div style="text-align: center;">
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In G is for Grace I mentioned the Deepak Chopra book <a href="https://www.amazon.com/Power-Freedom-Grace-Lasting-Happiness/dp/1878424858/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1492708806&sr=8-1&keywords=power+freedom+and+grace" style="text-decoration: underline;">Power Freedom and Grace</a>. Power refers to the idea that we have the power to manifest the life we want. I like the idea and believe it. What I give out I get back. Where I put my energy is what grows. But it takes perseverance because a lot of the time life really doesn't look like it's working out that way. I believe what Anne Lamott says, that Grace bats last and if I keep on with the quest for my best life it will happen. Is, in fact, happening now.<br />
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Bonus Word! <a href="http://www.radiantrecovery.com/cgi-bin/bbs-new/webbbs_config.pl?page=1;md=read;id=396558#m_396558">P is for Posting</a> at the <a href="http://radiantrecovery.com/">Radiant Recovery</a> Community Forum</div>
Janicehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14759846211417602796noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-805163330754963715.post-56986861605788545762017-04-20T10:15:00.000-07:002017-04-20T12:24:06.430-07:00O is for Oasis<div style="text-align: center;">
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Any place or thing offering welcome relief. What I'd like welcome relief from is all the noise in my head and the circus view I have of the world now. Literally. Every now and then I forget I can't see straight for a moment or I don't notice the hum in my head. But like the cartoon character who runs off a cliff and is fine for a moment until he looks down, they are there waiting.</div>
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Still, I can go outside, stand in the sun and breeze and smell the morning and for that moment experience oasis.<br />
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Bonus Word! <a href="http://www.radiantrecovery.com/cgi-bin/bbs-new/webbbs_config.pl?page=1;md=read;id=396526">O is for Opportunity</a> at the <a href="http://radiantrecovery.com/">Radiant Recovery</a> Community Forum</div>
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